I Love That I can't Hate YOU

Whenever I keep quiet… You ask me to speak…
And now when I wanna say such a lot… You aren’t ready to listen…
When I do mistakes, you’re always around…
And now when I wanna make ammends, You’re nowhere to be found…
When I don’t say a single word, you understand such a lot…
And now when I say I LOVE YOU… you fail to hear that…
My presence hurts you more than my absence…
But when I’m far away, you tell me to come back…
When my feelings are true… You don’t turn around to stay..
And when I move out, You just let me go away…
Far away to the world of loneliness..
In a crowd of smilling faces, but not a single known…
Memories haunting me day and night…
I keep thinking, how long will I be able to fight?
The only voice I wanna hear has gone silent forever…
And the only one I see, is to be found never…
Forever hurts, ‘cuz it’s never true..
I wish I could live forever, without YOU…
Maybe a day will come when evrything will be same…
But can a broken glass be a whole again??
I went away, not ‘coz I wanted to…
But ‘coz I thought you needed me too..
Only if I realised it before…
I’m not the one, whom YOU are made for …

Should I..???

should I stop speaking... just to see how you feel???
Should I go to that extent where you may even leave??
doesn't it matter when I can't stop my tears??
Don't you bother when my heart is on fire??
Don't you see that my eyes are searching for you??
Is it so easy for you to come and go??
Why do you say your feelings won't change??
When all that mattered has gone withheld??
Is love meant to be just for a while??
Can't there be an everlasting smile??
My love for you will be the same...
But I know that you won't be here again...
with all the pieces of my broken heart...
I'm trying to solve the puzzle that has taken a start..
Whenever I see you a smile appears...
Only your presence can take away my never ending tears....
I wish I never have to cry...
The wish will only come true when you'll be my life...

evrynyt i die...

i'm sorry if i cry tonight...
i'm sorry for the lie tonight...
i'm sorry 'cause i don't mean the apology...
i'm sorry 'cause i just wanna hide...
i just can't see myself burning into ashes..
i just dun wanna hear the scream...
neither do i wanna feel the fear that embraces...
and i don't want yu ever in my dream...
i may have seen how thousand people dies...
but this is the first time i visit my coffin...
i may have heard a thousand liess..
but this was the first time i knew you were lying...
and so i may pretend forever...
i'll let you know nothing ever...
it's just me and my fake smile...
'cause i had been alone all this while..

cut me deep into the veins...

Moi lyf rocks wdat u..why were u ever a part of it??
Ure presence never made me feel better..never better than how i feel now..
U said u will wipe away all moi tears..instead..u brought in more fears..
Fears that i may loose u..that things may never be the same again..
U said u would make me feel happy..but wot i felt was only pain..!!
And then when u usda be busy wid ure life..i usda sit n say to God..
Plz cut me..cut me deep into the veins..i wona feel the real pain..
When you are lonely..u feel left out..but dis pain is even worse...
Cuz u were there juz by moi side..but i never felt ure presence..
It was always me who said “i love you”..dont u remember??..
And in return u just smiled..never did u say u loved me..
U made me feel like a loner..i gave in to watever u hada offer..
But now am aware of it..i know how to ignore...but it nvr workz out..
I still feel the same way..the same pain kills me inside..
It makes me feel that cutting may help..it may release the pain hidden..
Thats why..weneva i sit alone..and when i can no longer bear the pain..
It makes mo wona cut into moi own veins..i makes me feel numb..
Will things ever be the same?..will i get bak the love from you again?..
And then i know..the truth..the reality..am hapy the way i am...
I dont need anybody...i can wipe moi own tears..
Being alone makes me feel like the queen of the world..
Cause i know noone can tear me apart..noone can ditch me if am alone..
So here i am..all the way down moi life..walking the path all alone..
And hey!..u dare not peep in moi life..or else em gonna thrash ya out.!..
I love being me..i dun need ure love..ohh phuleze!..
Dont u dare think that i still love you..i dont even feel ure absence..
It nomore makes me feel like cutting deep..nomore do i wana cry..
Now i only wona smile..i wona be selfish like you.!
But i know i can never be so mean..and so il be here forever..
And anytime you..yes YOU need me..il always be here..
Il always be here foh lending YOU the shoulder to cry on..
Il always be there..to be ur FRIEND..juz a FRIEND dis time..

i miss you ='(

I c u walking away..holding her hands..

D hands dat wer supposed to b mine.once..!!

U c me but dun dare to look into mah eyes..

I go n call u..u face me..ol terified..

I juz smyl n say,”hey..good luck..n gud bye!!.”

U walk away..relieved to get free from mah sight..

I wont tell u..but der wer tears in my eyes wen i said da last gud bye.!! :’(

Tears whch r invisible to your fake eyes.!!.

U leave meh behind..down da dark memory lane..

I juz wish i cud go n hold u..n say,”hey plzz cum bak again.!!”

But were u d same ‘u’..who had said,”i love u”..???

Wer u d one who said,”i dun ever wona luz u”..??

Was it so easy for u to say ‘it was an infatuatn dear’..??

Or was it juz becoz u got someone much better??

I dun wona know da answr..cuz i knw u wrent truthful to me..

So i dun wnt anoda lie from u..im betr off into silence of thee..

Now i undastnd y u said ‘ul lov me till i die’...

Cuz u knew dat once ure gone il nomore b ‘alive’.!!..

I dun wona miss u..dun wona thnk of u..

But ure d one whuz on my mind..werent u ever mine?

Tell meh phuleaz..how did u ditch meh?.. How were u able to fohget me??..

Ohh..sowie..i fohgot..u nevr ever loved me.. Never did u evn want to b wid me.. Wat was d need of ol diz..??..wat did i do to u??..

Were u bored wid video games dat u hadda play wid my heart too??

Neway,ol is fair in lov and war..so i love u n i take dis no far..

Wish u a happy life ahead..wish i dun c u agn..

Wish u get a gal..who would do da same..

N den ul know..how it feels wen ure hurt..ul knw d pain..

Ul feel how it is too have lost a piece f ure heart..

Good bye my frnd..good bye my lover..

Im still d one..i still love you..

But plz dun cum bak..dun hurt me agn..

Cuz now i wana sleep..n i don wana dream eva agn..

Darkness is what i love..cuz it heels pain..

Wen ure gone..i juz ask you..how cud u b so insane??..

How cud u eva be so insane??..

--- SoUmYaSrEe..<3..